Good or Evil

am i good or am i evil
am i angel or am i devil
am i none or am i both
two hearts or one soul?

the feelings in my breast
are threatening to express
themselves like a hurricane of devastation
after they left me in desolation

my actions don't follow my will
my feelings control them still
producing contradictions inside me
blowing them up until eternity

i want to explode
but still i hold
on because i fear the moment after
when i will be lost in my desaster

but i feel that the moment is near
i feel i will lose you dear
it feels like cutting my heart out of me
and throw it into a deep dirty black sea